I was a sodden, fucked mess!’
In a flash he was beside me, grabbed and disarmed me, then twisted my arm up my back. I felt the blade on my shoulders and I froze. xxvideo In that second of letting my guard down, he was on me. ‘Everything I wrote was true,’ I said, ‘I left hardly anything out.’
He paused, looking at me. I may have been seething with anger but I was aware I didn’t want to damage the fabric so I dropped the knife to my side. For a moment I almost told him, but my bloody-mindedness held sway and I shook my head again. I was a sodden, fucked mess!’
In a flash he was beside me, grabbed and disarmed me, then twisted my arm up my back.
